Here are some of my writing “confessions.” If you write, I’d love to know if you could admit something similar, or something completely different. What would your confessions be? If you don’t write, enjoy the glimpse into a writer’s mind: the fun and crazy part (:-p)
I HAVE NEVER CRIED OVER A CHARACTER. Though my latest first draft did have me pacing the room for a good five minutes when I realized something awful I would have to do to someone I liked. One of my favorite someone’s actually. That’s the WORST.
I DO HAVE FAVORITE CHARACTERS. If characters are like children then you really shouldn’t play favorites, but I do. There’s something about Laskenay in “The Crimson League” that I really like. She’s ridiculously strong in all kinds of ways I wish could be. She’s not the protagonist of that novel, but she’s a major player. I hope to feature her prominently in a prequel.
I THINK MY FEELINGS WOULD BE HURT IF SOMEONE INSULTED ONE OF MY FAVORITE CHARACTERS. Not in the sense of, “Oh, she’s all right, but I prefer this person.” In the sense of, “I think she’s dull and stupid and I wouldn’t care if she drowned herself in the Podra River.” There will always be people who don’t connect with the characters I favor, and there’s nothing wrong with that. Everyone has a right to his or her own opinion, and it’s not as though the person under consideration actually exists. But I have to think it would be like someone telling a parent, “Your kid’s a ridiculous brat. She’s obnoxious and I don’t want my kind hanging out with her.” Maybe it’s true, and maybe for the kid’s sake it needs to be sad. But it still hurts!
I USED TO SCORN WRITER’S GUILT. In high school, I read an interview in which someone asked J.K. Rowling what she would say to Harry Potter, if she could tell him anything. She responded, “I’m sorry.” She would tell him she was sorry. That sounded kind of strange to me, until I finished reading the series. Now that I’ve written a fantasy trilogy, I totally understand. I think if I could tell my protagonist Kora anything, it would be “I’m sorry.” If not that, then “You’re totally awesome and I wish I could be like you.” Yeah, maybe that….
I SLEEP POORLY BECAUSE I’M PLOTTING. I wake up and I set off thinking about the WIP, and then an hour’s gone and I haven’t fallen back asleep because my mind’s working. I should learn, but I just keep doing that, night after night. It’s much more fun plotting the next scene or two than it would be worrying about other things, no? I imagine I’m not the writer who does this, and I suspect it’s a major reason so many writers are SO addicted to coffee.
I DON’T MIND AIR TRAVEL, MAINLY BECAUSE IT’S PERFECT WRITING TIME. Most people can’t stand the airport or planes, or pretty much anything about the idea of flying. But I don’t mind it at all. I just pull out the laptop and get some writing done! If not that, I read. Because reading is also instrumental to writing well.
I HAVE A WRITING PLAYLIST. And it’s not what you think. It’s not songs I play while I write. They are songs that remind me of my characters or my novels in some way, or that I feel would go awesome attached to a particular scene if a movie were ever made of my work. I have never deemed that anything other than a fat chance, but hey, you never know….
I HAVE A DREAM CAST FOR A MOVIE VERSION OF “THE CRIMSON LEAGUE.” It includes Alia Shawkat (Maeby from “Arrested Development”) as Kora, Anne Hathaway as Laskenay, and Zach Braff as Zalski. I think he’d really humanize the villain role, and that matters to me.
I HAVE SPENT FAR TOO MUCH MONEY AT THE CAFE. It’s the perfect writing atmosphere for me, so I go there to write. A lot. A lot a lot. Oh well…. I justify the money spent because my cafe of choice is a local business, so at least I’m supporting that!
I FEEL GUILTY FOR WRITING MUCH OF THE TIME. There’s other stuff I should be doing. My oral exam prep as a graduate student, for instance, or grading. Oh well. I make sure I write daily anyway. It’s my passion, it’s what fulfills me, and it’s important to write on a regular basis if you want to write well or ever complete a project the size of a novel.