Patience isn’t overrated
I pride myself on being patient… where others are concerned. I don’t have great self esteem, and there are a lot of things I’m self-conscious about, but I can honestly say one thing I love about myself is that, recognizing I’m not perfect and more than a bit on the quirky side, I’m pretty good at cutting other people slack and not letting annoying habits they have get under my skin. I can get along and work with almost anyone.
Unfortunately, I’m not quite so patient or understanding with myself. When it comes time to. Whether it comes to addressing a flaw of my own or seeing results in the work I’m undertaking, I don’t always give myself the time I need. Knowing that about myself, I decided to ease into the publication thing, accepting I couldn’t rush it and results wouldn’t come immediately. My first two novels made it into shape (text-wise) for publication in 2012, so I released them. But there’s so much more I could do.
- I would like to hire someone to do cover re-design. While the nature scenes are nice and they reflect setting in my novels, they don’t give a good indication of what the novels are actually about. I’ve always known this, and settled at the beginning, knowing I could change covers later for an impact.
- I would like to hire someone to redesign the interior of my books as well (the e-book version, if nothing else.) I would love to add a map of Herezoth. People would find that helpful.
- I need to start up a press, so my books can be linked to a press name. It looks so much more professional.
- I wouldn’t mind re-editing my novels and putting out a new edition.
- I would LOVE to arrange a signing at a local bookstore! And I need to get out all the promotional cards and magnets I’ve bought circulating.
- I really, really need to invest more time and money into marketing. I’ve gotten good reviews from those who have discovered my work, but I need to get my work out there.
Unfortunately, I’m also at a major crossroads in my life. I need to find a job (first of all), move back home, and get a driver’s license. It’s officially tax season, which is going to be a nightmare for me this year. I run the blog daily, and that’s working well, so I don’t want to cut back on that, but it does take time.
I refuse to compare myself with others (though I do let them inspire me). We’re all in different places and have greatly varying life situations.
I’m left with life intervening, which it does for all of us. So I’m looking at this as a great opportunity to practice patience, develop my time management skills, and do what I can one step at a time, day by day: twitter, facebook, blogging, KDP free promotions, they’ve all helped me garner some minimal sales and start gaining attention. I’d say around 6,000 copies of my first novel were downloaded or ordered in 2012–most for free–so that’s a start, and not a bad one. There’s no need to compare myself with other people who are more successful in the sales department, or to feel that I don’t stack up because I’m not where they are yet. I’ll get there in my turn. These things take time and dedication. And sweat. I’ll just keep going at it until I see the payoff I’m hoping for, and past that, and of course, I’ll continue to write each day. I’m truly learning to be more patient with myself through this whole process, which is a wonderful benefit. It will improve my happiness and my quality of else in other capacities than my writing career, and that makes any of the frustrations and pains of the process worthwhile.
I titled this “A writer…. And yet, not quite one,” but that isn’t really true. Sales do not a writer make. Passion for the craft and the habit of writing do. I’ve got that. If you write, you ARE a writer, end of story.